back to sewing.

in dire need to scout around for a new materials,pronto!!

god bless, my clutch bag somehow was a hit!! well, at least to my standard. what was intended to be a fun making self-project turn to a more-than-I-can-handle thingy. but im good,at the mo. i really hope i cope well with the oncoming orders.

so now, i have fabric hunting to do. finding a good craft shop also a challenge - with my time restrain of coz!

wish me luck,people.
now,im back to my sewing machine. theres orders to finish.
musnt make ur customer waiting,aightt?? :)

till then.

The long lists.

October is ending....and before u know it,its November already. Pfftt...

Year end means Ben will be super busy which left me alone tutoring the elder two for their exams. Which i loathe the most. Frankly, am not a good teacher. I am not good at explaining things nor do I have the patience. But the later is what i hate the most. The munchkins will end up crying!! Bad momma!!

Theres so many things to with November approaching. Need to finalize the booking - hotels are CRAZY!! all fully booked!!

What with Adia's ballet exam coming soon. She'll be in Grade 2 if she pass the test. Weehoo!! Plus we will be having another ballerina in the family. Who u might ask? Who else can it be. Certainly not Adlan! :) My little baby will be joining her sister this December. Yay!! Cant wait to see her in tutu. Lately, she's been picking up steps from her sister. Impressive.

And Adlan's tuition class. Yes, finally we succumbed to an extra classes. Need to polish few subjects. Not that he's bad at it but we were told that its going to be tougher next year for him, hence the precaution. Hope the class wont bore him off. He's easily turn off. Hope he survived, along with the swimming class. Pheww!! How to squeeze u in the football academy laaa,boy??!! Hes been asking us to enroll him in this frootball academy like forever, but I dont think he can juggle all. What with homeworks in between. Certainly wont let him quit swimming, its for his asthmatic.

 In my years, school holidays means freedom. TOTAL FREEDOM!! Im telling you,no books or what so ever. Heaven on earth!

Fret not, Ben and I have the munchkins's interests as a priority. Dont worry. We wont stress them out.

Till then.

come what May...

I guess procrastination is my middle name. 

Has got to be one!!!

Its like there's so much going on in my mind, that I let things slip by...even my 'to do list' didnt do much of a help. How now brown cow?? 

Anyway, its May and it mark another milestone to my darling baby girl. Yup, my baby turned 3 last week. As cliche as it may sound, but time does flies when u having fun, no? Who would have thought its been 3years after they cut me open and took this baby of mine out, breathing all to herself. Alhamdulillah ^_^

Not so baby anymore, huh?? ;)

We love you, Nana. Always remember that,no matter what. Like I always told your brother and sister - "always look down at your belly button, and you'll understand" . Err, you might dont get it now but you will,eventually. (Its my own made-up-so-called-metaphor , yes, Im crazeee like that ;p )

Happy 3rd Birthday, baby girl. Be well and be good. May you bloom into a pretty girl, inside out. InsyaAllah. My prayer will always be with you. Always.

Till then.

leaving on a jet plane.

Im still in the midst of packing, not really done yet. I hate packing for I tend to over pack. Be it just an overnight at my in-laws, long holiday at my mom's or even a short getaway..I always pack extras for the whole clan which leads to bigger bag when Im trying as much as possible to go as minimal as I can. But, I sucks.

And this time doesnt make any different either. Even after hundreds reminder from Ben asking me to bring just a few clothes - read : shopping intended. Big time!! Now u know where we're heading too.

My initial plan was to use the small luggage bag,only, while the big one will be left empty seems like a failure. I have no idea what went into the bag, but it seems like the empty space has been decreased every time I am near :'(

Gotta finalised the packing and zip it up, once and for all. No more stuffing. Only essentials. Erghh.... I really hates packing!!

Anyway, be good while Im away. Will be back in a blink of an eyes. Do awaits with the details once i get back.

Im off to have a final look on the bag....and sleep.

Tilll then.

middle child syndrome?

Is it true? what say you...

For me, every child has their pros and cons, advantages or flaws...but in the end, its how we, as a parent succumbed to the need of each and every child. And this, may leads to hundreds, or maybe thousands of trials and errors. No short cut. And no manual either. 

And my daughter wasnt excluded from being diagnosed with this particular syndrome, what with her endless tantrums and meltdown, its hard to not to agree. 

She's like a ticking bomb, thats what we like to call her lately. The calm before the storm. One minute she can be such a jovial and fun person to be with, and for no particular reason, she can  be the otherwise the next. Its like having a split personality. Its tiring if I may say so, but I was told that He wont test His servants more that what they can chew,no? Thus, Im adamant to go thru this phase with her, thick or thin, rain or shine, screaming and wailing all sorts...I will always be there for her.

Still, its an everyday learning process for me, and Ben too. And I dont think she will go easy on us. There's meltdown on everyday basis...be it a heavy downpour or just a scattering rain, it happens all the time that Ive lost count. Even the tiniest issue could lead to a HUGE meltdown. Go figure. 

Alas, I believe that this phase will soon go away. Thru time, she will see that regardless whose the first to see the light, she will always be my girl, may daughter, my friend, my shopping companion. I'll held her hand with all my might, never once to let go, InsyaAllah.

Till then.

P/S : To my darling Yaya, you're such a God send. Mommy and Daddy loves u infinity. Never fear for you will always be our favourite ballerina, forever. We're always be two steps behind - to catch you when you fall but never be in your way so that you may bloom, in your own special way. Love you, baby girl. 

april babies....

April has got to be one of the busiest month every year...

April 2nd marked another milestones. My first born,and my only boy celebrated his 9th birthday this year. 9 years old...wow!! seems like only yesterday he was vacuumed out from me - yes,he refused to come out hence the vacuum. Guess,he prefers to snuggle up inside his,eyy?? ;) No wonder he's so 'manja'. Mommy loves u,Abang. Infinity!! You will always and forever will be my baby boy. Muahhs!!



Then, came the 16th which means my only baby sister with the age gap of 19years celebrated her 15th birthday. Now do the math!! ;p My parent definitely are the happiest coz i dont think in their wildest mind could ever imagine celebrating Myn's 10th birthday, let alone 15th!! Fyi, my mom delivered my sister when she's 45th. Yup!! Me and my two brothers used to tease Myn for being the 'sesat' baby,haha!! But,with God will, she has grown into a beautiful soul which I adores. We hardly fought with each other cause of the age gap, so thats what makes us so close. Well,maybe because Ive yearn to have a sister when I was young that i treasured every moment that I have with her. Love you, Comot!!



And, tomorrow, the 20th will be my Babah's birthday. The man that has always be my fav, besides my Ben and my boy of coz. But, with my Babah....its something else. Being the only girl - prior to Myn's birth of coz - has somehow given me the license of being the spoiled brat which leaves my brothers VERY unhappy. Hmm, lets say that Ive always getting away without being scolded at. ;) Thank you, Babah...and sorry bros,totally am. Dont let me go thru my teenager nor my adolescent...it must have been a turmoil for my dad, and mom. But they stood by me thru my rebellious years and never let go. Till now, even when Im happily  married with three kids, they're always there. So Babah, Happy 60th Birthday...I love you, always...



So, yeah, my wallet got thinner but let me tell you, the warmth in my heart is what matter the most, knowing that I am surrounded with all these people makes my life worth the living.

Till then.

another comeback...

If there's one thing that i loathed the most, it has to be people who seems to made promises and dont have the intention of keeping it. Its a total turn off for me.

For me, promises is something so sacred that one SHOULDN'T played around with. Full stop. If u are in no position on keeping one, then DON'T make one...as simple as that. You never know the impact on someone else's life because of the broken promises. It might be fatal!! Okey, I might be exaggerating this, but its not funny nor a nice thing to do. You may see it as petty lil' thing, but it might meant something else for the other person.

Just so u know, my lappy crashed recently and has been 'warded' for quite sometimes. After a major surgery and a few face lifts, I finally get my hands on her couple of days ago. Pheww!! what a relieves. Luckily I can still rely on my phone, but with the age catching up ;p i need a bigger screen to satisfy my sighting...haha...

Anyway, what im trying to say is, as much as I hate those people, I cant run from doing the same either...huh! !here's me calling the kettle black,iskkk...Why u may ask??

Prior to my lappy accident, I have made promises to a few friends to email them something and totally failed at keeping it for all the documents was stored inside my lappy. Sucks!! BIG TIME!! I am totally sorry!! ...and eventho Ive my lappy back, but somehow all my docs went kapooosh!! and yes, I dont have back-up :( silly me. Im not the kind of person who do back-up, even for pics... yes, call me stupid now :(

...but heaven sent me Ben, my darling Ben...he somehow has a hunch that my lappy is in danger and saved all the pics without me knowing it. Hah!! now you tell me, how not to love him when he keeps on saving my life ;) ice liebe dich,Ben...what would I do without u... ^_^

So, my point is, Im terribly sorry for not keeping my promises...even tho my reason is legit, but I failed at keeping it, regardless. Do forgive me. Thats all im asking for.

Till then.

Time to.....

FREAK OUT!!! 

December already ?

Man!!

Im doomed!! December approaching fast...and before i know it, January is somewhere around the corner. Marks another milestones to our little-but-loud family ;)

But am not talking about whats in store for us in January just yet. For now, im enjoying the craziness of December. With the munchkins out of school, means that they'll be IN MY FACE 24/7.... u got what i mean? not that i dont the love them all, but kinda looking forward for the school to re-open. HAHA!!

Anyway, my little boy are not little anymore. Had his one-in-the-lifetime-life-changing experience, and he has become a man. Im very proud of him. ^_^  and he has been good, ever since.

Vacation with friends and families has been arranged, and i cant wait to spend the times with these lovelies people that always be with me, thru thick and thin. Time to let loose. Time to let my hair down - its a metaphor ok, not that im taking off my hijab or something, duuh!!

All im asking, not much, but just that we'll be experiencing a smooth sailing trip - down below and up north. Am keeping my fingers crossed!!

Till then.
Happy holiday,peeps!!

Belated Eidul Adha wishes...

Its been a good Eidul Adha for us, minus the ugly traffic. Eughh!! Worst traffic ever. Even worst than going back on Eidul Fitri, seriously. We made it just in time before the prayer. Pheww!!

Anyway, have a good day everyone...

Later skater.

Down with fever...

Its official !!

Milld temperature,  a horrendous cough one could witness and a bad runny nose to complete my Raya look. Eughh...what a turn off. :( 

Hoping Im all well this coming Friday...

Later skater...

My bimbo moment...

I may laugh now, but if u are there with me yesterday... u'll see no different between me and a big giant lobster. Im all red, literally. I  have never felt THAT stupid, if u know what I mean. Deeply humiliated. -,-

Well,long story cut short - Im supposed to have my monthly check up with my dermatologist at Prince Court yesterday morning. So, just like any other morning, I will send Yaya to her school before Im off to my favorite drive thru - Starbucks that is, to get my daily dose of caffeine then reluctantly drove to Prince Court for another stressful session. Hmm... Or so I thought.

Right after I drop-off Yaya with her teacher, it strucked me that I have to fill the gas and reload my Touch n Go for my SmartTag. So, off i went to the nearest petrol station. I only realized when Im on the road that I have forgotten the most essential thing for my morning routine, my coffee!! I absent minded-ly forgot to go back to the drive thru. What a shame!!

So, there I was... driving thru the morning traffic sans coffee, in the centre of KL, with my chatty toddler strapped inside her car seat. Im a disaster!!! Caffeine deprived to say the least. But somehow, along the way, I remember there's one coffee shop at the ground floor of the hospital. I lit up again. Weehooo!!

Thus, once we reached there, without thinking I stormed into the coffee shop and went straight to the counter. With a smile - happy that finally I can have my morning coffee - blurted out "One salted caramel mocha, hot and make it grande please.." Fuuhh.... I feels like doing a star jump on the spot to show how happy I am at that time. But I didnt coz the barista didnt budge.

Clearly she didnt understand me, so I repeat my order, only this time she answered me back "Sorry ma'am, we dont have it. Thats in Starbucks.." Then only it strikes me, Im in the Coffee Bean for god sake!! And to top it off, there's this cute guy standing next to me already cracked into giggles. Im doomed!! So,with all my might, pushed the buggy and will never make a return.

The end.

Invisible...

I am in need of a quick getaway, an escapade... to recharge, after all the chaos happens lately. But since my darling Adlan still  having his exam, hence the wait.

Oh exam, please end soon. I am soo wanna get soaked in the chlorine water and surrender my body to the heat. Spending all day long with my darling Ben will be the ultimatum, since he's been busy lately. Seeing the smiles all plastered on my munchkins's face and their endless laugh, nothing beats that!! 

Dear short weekend getaway, 

Please come quick and let us have it all our way. 

xoxo,

Me.

Later skater.

Fever hoax...

Nana once again scares the hell out of us!! Last saturday, her temperature went up for no reason,out of the blue. A vivid vision of DEMC flashed right in front of me. I cant think of anything else. Hardly feels anything either.

With no hesitance,gave her PCM syrup pronto, plus kool fever paste on her forehead. I dont think I can get thru the  drama again, no sir!! Ben was more panic than I was.

To my surprise, Nana ate her medicine with no hassle. Unlike before, Ive to shoved the syringe into her mouth and forced her to swallow. Not anymore. Pheww!! Guess, few nights in hospital did taught her something,huh... I am a proud mom. ;)

Seems like the Lady Luck sticking with us a little longer, for her temperature didnt stay for too long. Thus, by that evening, we're already at our friend's son's birthday party. And guess what, she's the happiest girl in the bunch. Haha!!

From one mommy to another, sick child is the hardest thing one could bare. Throw me anything except this one. I know its beyond my to control, nevertheless, one can always pray. My pray will always be with my munchkins, for them to grow big, healthy and all.

Later skater.

Little chef...

Last week,made this for my cousin's son's belated birthday party. She chose a Toblerone Cheese cake.

And yes,for those who didnt know, I bake too. Am not a full fledge pastry chef tho, but I currently ran this Bake 'IT' Up by myself. Well, its not a famous,hot shot bakery in town but enough for me to fill my free time - as if Ive got plenty of free time ;)

Being a home-based baker, and take into consideration of my hectic schedule and hyper-to-the-max-munchkins, there's only limited items made. There's only i) Toblerone Cheese Cake, ii) Red Velvet and
iii) Choc Chips/Cherries Muffins. Haha!! I know right!! Quality over quantity, I supposed.

Well, mama always called me a 'seasonal baker'. Which means, I bake as and when I feel like it. FYI, I once turn down an order because I dont feel like baking at that time. Just cause. It is my passion, thus I hate having that reluctant feeling when Im doing any request from the customer. Furthermore, I dont work well under pressure. I like the laid back feeling as opposed to the frantic scene, hence, taking my own sweet time as if Im doing it for ourselves.

Later skater.

Think u know better?

Annoying friend is like having an annoying neighbour. You cant just get rid of them, as matter of facts, they sticks like glue. Super annoying!! And the worst part is they just cant see it that they're such a pain in the a**.  o_O

Well, I have a friend like that to begin with. A friend that think that she knows everything about everyone and  everything. Somehow,like a dictionary i presume. Thought she knew every bits of u even tho we spend just a few years together. And even after a long separation, and she thanked FB for bringing us back, deep down i know I am regretting my decision in clicking the ACCEPT button. Pffft!!

I remember my Babah once retorted that I am that impossible to understand. Thus, having this genius entity  claiming that she can read me inside out is like bogus!! A total turn off. Wish I could just hand her my STFU card and shoo her away,but am not like that.

For now, I just distance myself. Headache free. Heartache free too. 

Later skater.

Munchkins.

My munchkins - all grown up. I bet there'll be more to come. As of now, I am blessed for having the chance to watch them grow,right before my very eyes. Its tiring, no doubt. But,its a good one if u know what I mean.

Later skater.

Here we go again!!

Haloooo!!

Its me again,getting back on my blogging after being harassed by none other my darling Ben ;p Love u,darling... I just dont see any reason as to why I have to get back to my writing - as we all know by now there's been so many other social-network- methods that proved to be working efficiently besides blogging.

Am not saying its outdated,but just imagined...with Twitter,FB or IG,one can get feedback pronto - like there and then. Need not long sentences. Imagine,with just a snap away,a piece of my boring life was updated for my less-than-thirty-followers viewing. Easy peasy!!

Anyhoo,i do get it when Ben said I better off blogging - for its kinda therapeutic for me. When I put it into words,its like I'm letting it out of my chest. Let out some steam,as I like to call it. :) Hence,less stressed wife/mommy in da houz,y'all!! ;p

And I must confessed, I like this feeling. Ben was right all along. Hate it when he's right. Pfft!!

Guess,this has been a great start. Finger crossed for a more active writings. ^_^

Later skater.

me time...

even word cant justify how i felt now...who would have thought that a quickie is all we need ...sweet escapade,just to rekindle the love....and for once,im back being me,my own self...defining myself in my own way...

but dont get me wrong,i do loves my munchkins...always was and forever will be...but having the time to enjoy to the band that i adored the most and belting out with my out-of-pitch voice was waaay beyond what ive signed up for....

gazillion thanx to my darling ben for having the guts to stick with me till the end of the concert,and wide awake!! woohooo!! i bet u the next time u heard any of MLTR's songs,my cute lil' faces will definitely flashed rite in front of u...im ur singing nightmare,babeh!!

nevertheless,its been a great nite...with a great company...im all smiling...

toodles...

wordless wednesday...