think again!!!

hate it when people thinks ive the privilege to do this sorts of things by being the SAHM....

hanging around listening to music...


slouching on the couch...

chillin' ...

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which makes me wanna cry...

coz its NOT!!!

n it hurts...

everytime!!!

every single time!!!

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how now brown cow?

we supposed to move to our own casa by end of this month,but..........

• lighthings - some need to be changed due to the concrete ceiling,hmmm....which down light is not applicable,which is sucks... :( harus ke di plaster ceilingkn?? hishhh...
• kitchen cabinet - still pending a few doors + handles (which we've to wait for 2 more weeks..) i was like hellooooo.....ni mcm beli kt kedai cap ayam ke?? sweden cabinet my ass!!
• the floor need to be basuh with that machine yg pusing2 mcm kt mall tu...i dunno the name ;p
• curtain -yet to be altered,due to curtain rod still x jugak gantung2...how laaa??

n to top it off, we wont be around the whole next week - off to up north...yeay!! at least the idea of seeing my parent lift up my mood a lil' bit...

so,tell me how are we supposed to pindah with the list of issues keep getting longer...haishh... tension tahap dewa dh nie....even dewa19 pon x tension cam i... *sigh*

later...

do u believe in fairy tale?

i do...totally!! im all heads over heels when it comes to fairy tales,n i now know why my lil' gal is soooo crazee bout prince,princess n stuffs...heheh,well,girl will always be girls,rite...

anyway,real life is no fairy tales,well,at least thats what most people believe in,or were told...but if i may intrude,i do belive that fairy tales can happen in real life,but of coz it may differ from the one that we used to read,but still with the same drill...how u may ask?

ok,in fairy tales,a decent girl who lives with her abusive stepmother n a stepsisters met a handsome prince,got married n live happily ever after...whilst in real life...u meet a man of ur dream,falling in lurve,get married n live together...happy or not,its up to the both of them as how they will make their life happily ever after... now,do u get what i mean??

but as some says,married life aint easy....marriage is not a bed of roses...there'll be hiccup here n there...but how u handle the issues is matter the most...mend it not end it,remember??

errr,sorry...im being emo here...NO,NO...im fine,ben's fine,WE'RE FINE!! alhamdulillah...

its juz intimidating as how people around me tend to go separate ways after years of together-ness..its freaking the hell out of me,of coz,i wont lie...i was there when the lurve bloom,when they tied the knot n so forth...but,who am i to critise...He knows better aight?? n im a strong believer in things happen for a reason...but,this things has made a real mess in my head,heheh...true...cant help myself from thinking bout it,bout them...BOUT US...*sigh*...

may ive a strength to always be there for the friends of mine that i lurve....for my darling ben,that will always be my lurve n hopefully lurve me back,heheh...n not to forget,my darling munchkins....coz from what i observed,when things falls apart its the children who suffered the most,without us ever knowing....hmmm....

i juz hope that me+ben could take this as a lesson that will help us thru our journey,our life as a partner...insyaAllah...

till then...

my munchkins...

adriana,si mate bolat... ;)

sisterhood...

with big bro...

adia,adriana & adlan...

i am so blessed,i couldnt asked for more...
^_^

err,no..the yellow bear is not my child... ;p

later skater..

how do they cope?

im quite sceptical bout how adlan n adia will cope once we have adriana...from what i see,they're complacent with juz the two of them...but,they adapt well...so,well that i finally come to term that that is why He grant us with this beautiful baby even when i feel like im not ready yet...u know what i mean...

but of coz there's hiccup here n there,but they adore adriana so much that sometimes ive to hold back my tears when i look at how she will smile whenever adlan n adia is around,or making small talks with her...it melts my heart rite away,hishh,such a ratu air mate nowadays...dunno why...hormon maybe,but what kind of hormon?? ;p

till then...

mornin,sleepy head...

its not like i never stayed up late before,but feeling so sleepy rite now,iskkk,am i gettin old?? ;p had a late nite supper with my mummy,abah n darling iqa...sorry iqa,sian awak ngantuk2 ekk,hehehe...hence,went to bed kinda late,all of us,except adriana,heheheh....she slept half way thru,thanx to mummy for dukung her,like non stop okeyyy... ;) and not to mention the 'empuk' cushion,way waaaaaaay much comfy than me,heheh.. ;p

but it was for a good cause,err,in a way laaaa...we finally done with the lighthing,hehehe,kudos to my abah ^_^ i soooooo know that we can never get that kinda price elsewhere,muchos gracias,abah... it was tough tho to decide,need to perah my kepale otax juz to visualize whether it fit or not...im spoiled for choices,haiyaaa...luckily abah said i can change later on,if it doesnt look good...awww,tq abah,againn... =D

adlan n adia also got this for their bedroom,tq abah,againnn agaiiinnn...heehehe..well,they choose the room already,but ive doubt they can sleep in it safe n sound,hmmm...but,gotta be optimist tho...maybe,who knows...least i can do is to make theirs very inviting in order to make it happen,i guess... ;p let us all crossed fingers,lol!!

so,all ive gotta do now is to pray that we have made a great choice over the lights,iskkk - me choose,while ben kinda go along with me,heheh..teamwork babeh!! is it?? ;p ...so to my darling ben,thanx for going with my idea,even when its doesnt come cheap,heheh...

to be honest,ive butterflies in my tummy rite now,knowing that its crunch time n we're moving in end of this month...im soooo excited....gosh,wish ive time to paint the munchkins's rooms...hmmm...maybe later...

so,later skater...

how do i cope??

ive got peoples asking me how am i coping rite now,what with a new baby in tow...well,to be franked,i am nervous at first...dead nervous,to be precised...i always raised my concern to ben,even when im still pregnant this baby,but he kept telling me that i'll be fine,in fact we're all will be fine...but me being me,i always doubt it,guess im juz afraid that i couldnt managed these three all by myself...what if they all throws tantrums rite at the same time?? what if i need to take shower,will adlan or adia jumped on the baby?? iskk...so many questions...too many 'what if...'...

but,He knows best...we're blessed with a calm baby,indeed...adriana is a doll,i tell u...all i did was to make sure i feed her to the fullest,heheh,but not to choke her of coz...juz enough to make her happy....then,i put her into her crib n switched on the mobile...n as they says,the rest is history,lol!! she'll doze off all by herself,easy aightt?? alhamdulillah...thats make my job easier...thus,the elder two will still have my attention,so less drama...

i even have an undistracted sleep at nite,seriously!...well,she usually woke around 11.30-12am,juz when we're about to hit the sack...so,i juz feed her,and then she'll sleep thru the nite...i repeat,thru the nite,people!! next feeding will be juz about subuh,heheh..thats what keep me happy as a bee,heheh...hopefully,this happy cycle will last forever...well,i know its impossible as baby tend to change their so called 'schedule',but somehow,i hope it wont be too contradict with the current routine...

and seeing as august is juz around the corner (we're moving,finally...) there's so many things to be done...so many decisions to be made...we're out of the house every other day...scouting around for stuffs...weekend lagi la kann...but adriana never make a fuss...we even took her for her first lepaking session at papparich,but she seems dont mind at all,hehhe,good gal ;) ...but,she hates ikea during weekend,ended up crying n refused to be put inside the stroller...so,no more weekend at ikea.. ;p

but all in all,im so grateful at how things going on rite now...am sooo blessed!! ^_^

till then...

note : iskkk....im having trouble rotating the pic..my bad,hehhe...

am happy...

somehow,this blog of mine went kaput for almost two months...dont asked me why,as i really dunno what caused it...but,as far as im concerned,it came back to haunt me down,hehheh...naah,juz joking,...

but,im so relieved to have it back...even tho i wont be able to write daily,but boy im glad it finally returned to me...for this is the only medium to channel my emotions or what not... ;)

there are so many things that i wanna blog about...but first,ive gotta sort few things out...so,please bare with my non-IT savvyness ok....

till then...

im back...