wordless wednesday...

mr jumbo... ;p

what its like to be a working mom...

today,ive a glimpse of what it'll be like if i too working 9 to 5...hehe...and no,dont get me wrong,this is not anything near me going back to work ;) ...its just that,my schedule for today requires me to drive to a various places in the super-jammed-area (read - golden triangle) thus,the possibility of me driving home late and not to mention contribute to the additional 1% car-pooling-hesitant-driver-that-add-more-cars-on-the-road...

somehow it trigger to me that avoiding is the better solution,at least thats what i pressume,haha!! thus,i decided to drag my darling ben into this *evil grin* tq,ben for dont have the nerves to let me down ;) ... ^_^

so,there we are,at dawn,busy carrying the munchkins - one after another,lucky us there's only three of them,haha!! anyhoo,once all buckled up,off we go to kelana jaya station to drop off ben (which he usually drive,himself)...yes,he took the train daily to work now,less hassle and importantly no more stress,which is the crucial point ever!!

its been ages since my last attempt in joining the morning crowd (read-morning driving) unless to drive ben to the airport (when he's off to somewhere for work) but thats definitely a different story coz its not as hectic as heading to the jammed prone area,its more like against the traffic...so,no complaint....

hopefully,i can brace myself to drive to klcc to fetch ben in the evening,oh man,i hate this...not that im an incompetence driver,mind you,im more than capable to drive everywhere... ;p it juz that the idea of driving around kl area that irks me...pfftt...

well,,one gotta do what one must do,aight? less complaint and more works,what a good working ethics,no?? ;)

till then...

one of her many firsts...

this movie marked as nana's first movie ;) frankly,im quite sceptical about bringing her to watch the movie for im afraid that she'll scream her lungs out when the lights off,but man,i was wrong...eventho she's sandwiched between me and ben (we took the couple seats - me,nana and ben,while adlan sat with yaya) she was calm,indeed, and munching away popcorn half the movie,while spend the other half of the movie zZZzzZz...im impressed!!

looks like my puasa towards cinemas has come to an end,hehe...;p looking forward for more movie-time with my lil' family... ^_^ what a great outing...

till then...

another reason to celebrate...

i just came back from adia's school for her parent-teacher-meet..basically to collect her final progress report,books and to settle the payment for next year,hehe...easy maaa,no worries till the next term,haha!! ;p

hows the result u might ask?? see for yourself...and im all tears,yet again... u_u


in times likes this,it makes all the efforts and sacrifices all worthwhile...congrats,adia...mommy so proud of u,and so as daddy...

till then...

december blues...

somehow it hit me that my poor time management skill that what keeps me caught up with things that need to be done...hish...rite now,im lack of motivation...so malas even when i know for sure that i'll be nowhere near achieving my goals with this lazy-bum-attitude of mine,erghh...i need to be spanked,for real!!

my laid-back routine has come to an end with my parent finally gone back to sg petani,after more than two weeks stay...no more delicious home cooked meals that was everything but...hehe,back to tapau style ok,kiddos?? haha!! ;p

at least we're looking forward for a few getaway - which still in initial plan, as yaya finally finished her schooling for this year - yes,somehow smart reader still have classes in december,i wonder why? well,since its un-refundable,we decided to just let her proceed with the class...and today,they ended their school session with a field trip to dominos,which she boast about the whole time.. ;)

since its already school holiday,and christmas somewhere in the corner,it seems impossible to get a room at somewhere decent...hmmm,or shall we proceed to HRC penang instead?? *evil grin*

anyhoo,gotta sorts things out for my munchkins are getting bored by days...

till then...

wordless wednesday...

getting ready to perform 'joget pahang' for her year-end's concert... ;)

bloated!!

yup,thats how i felt....how la kan?? been eating my mom's home cooked meals almost everyday,aiyakkk....ive already gained a few pounds,mind you... ;p

later skater...

what a wonderful nite...

last nite,im all smiles..me and ben,we had a great time,...^_^ the outing went great,and to top it off,the movie was awesome!!

what can i say,for a hopeless-romantic like me,a romantic comedy will always be my pick...and 50/50 surely be my latest muse,hehe...what with the cute-and-yet-sexy joseph gordon-levitt,yummeh!! ;p

my verdict?? i would love to give it a 5 stars,but the ending kinda a bit let down,i wish theres more to it...but hey,who am i to argue...hence,4.5 stars that is!! such a great movie...

anyway,the only thing that remained stucked at the back of my mind was that for the first time,when i came home at 2.30am in the morning,my babah greeted us with a smile,weird...used to get scolded for coming home late during my tv-hitam-putih-era haha!! if u know what i mean... ;p no,i dont have curfew back then,but still he'll wait for me no matter how late and followed by a short-ceramah... hows time has changed...thanx again to my parent whose more than eager to look after the munchkins while we're gone... lurve u both....*muahss*

last but not least,my darling ben...looking forward for more 'us' time,espcially AJL if we managed to secure the tickets,hehe..keep our fingers crossed,will ya??

till then...

ben and i...

im over the moon!! wanna know why?...

firstly ; after 7 years,i repeat,7 years (read : after adlan was born..) me and ben are going to catch a movie tomorrow,just the TWO of us....i repeat,only US!! whoot!!whoot!! im lost for words actually,anyway,kudos to my parent...yes,they're still here,thus willingly to look over our darling munchkins while we're out....we could never repay u both,tq mama and babah,and chumyn also laaa ;p ... btw,ive already booked 50/50 (why this?beacuse there's sexy joseph gordon-levitt,how can i resist?? sorry ben,i luv u still,no worries!! heheh...) at GSC 1 Utama...the timing?? sure la midnight *pensan* im over excited,cant wait...think ive got butterflies already,hehe...so lame... ;p

secondly ; its our second outing,just the two of us... ^_^ last monday,we freed ourselves to empire subang for a minom-kopi-macam-bagus session...feel weird tho talking without interruption,haha!! guess,we're so immune with the chaos that when its only us,it feels empty in a way,if u get what i mean...nonetheless,we still cherished the 'us' time and it does feels good after a while...eventho it just a simple minom and a bit of shopping,on my side of coz ;p we had a blast...thats explained the midnight movie,hehe...well,maximising the helps while we can,hehe,coz who knows when our next dating2 will be...




till then....

babbles...

life has been hectic,but good...no complaints :) alhamdulillah ive been surrounded with all the TLC that im much needed...mind you,runnning round the house is no easy matter,ya'know... ;p it needs physically,and MOSTLT emotionally strength to survive,really!!

i appreciate all the help that i get,and having said that,i am glad that my darling mama,babah and chumyn were here to lend a helping hands,thank you naaaaa...heheh..frankly,we're spending more times outside rather than at home,haha!! ukur jalan wehhh... ;p


the munchkins had constantly nagged me to let them have a pet,but found it hard to digest the idea coz i know ,the one that will left to do all the dirty chores will be none other than urs truly,which i loathe the most...hence,been abandoned the idea for so long...but finally i gave in...and here,presenting our 'mechanical' pet rabbit,ying... ;) hassle free,no? no feeding,no pooping only AA size batteries needed...im happy,and so are they... ^_^

note to self : to write a letter to the owner of tutti frutti's setia alam to move the store somewhere else,for im about to go bankcrupt!! haha!! im going cuckooo!! ;p

later skater...

impromptu gesture...

this morning when i woke up, i was greeted by this petite paper bag,placed neatly on my dressing table...aahh,what a sight :)

merci beacoup,darling...heheh,it really put a smile on my bare-face,coz mine was long gone... ;p

tq,ben...
xoxo

wordless wednesday...

^_^

betul betul betul!!

for those who knew me knows that i rarely cook on weekend,unless we have people coming over,or when my insane craving kick in,but having said that,i dont do weekend-cooking ;p

as usual,when lunch time approached,its always a constant battle between us - when asked where to eat - everyone will have their own preferences ;p lucky us our nana noni still too small to speak her mind off,or else there'll be an extra 'idea' that need consideration...then came the next question,what to eat - which always a headache,not so much of a help...

my darling ben eat pretty much everything,whilst urs truly can be a little fussy...i dont mind if the food aint that good,but the place has to be 'bersih' if u know what i mean...my elder two,on the other hand preferred western meal,to my delight,hehe..

anyway,long story cut short - we agreed to try on this restaurant somewhere behind tesco extra,shah alam called Geng's Corner...and yes,its the signature eatery of the famous siblings,upin and ipin...my munchkins was over the moon!! especially when they see that all the menus written was named after the characters in the story,i.e. nasi ayam upin,bihun sup kak ros..aint it cute??

all i can say is that the food was not bad, got 'rase' ...nothing to shout about,but i dont mind going there again ;)

till then...

ive been bitten...

by a sewing bug,that is,hehe... ;)

here's the latest creation by Benang by JazFara to feast ur eyes...details can be find at our facebook page...u are more than weolcome to drop by...

Sexy Summer Dress by Benang...

Bib Style Dress by Benang...

to know more about the cute creation,

do stop by and place ur order for its selling fast,hehe...

later skater...

our weekend train ride...

its only a simple train ride,but boy,they're all giddy and happy...i'd do train ride anytime,kiddos..*muahss*

later skater...

out of the bed...

to wanie : we still have that gift of urs hanging on the bed *read- mobile* :)

finally!! me and ben finally got our bed to ourselves again,wohooo!! why u might ask?? its because,our darling nana noni has finally sleep in her own baby crib...wehooo!! fret not,it placed a few steps away from us,so,no worry...well,im not that mean,y'know... ;p

since she's hooked to that bottle of hers,she's no longer wakes at nite,thus tido teros till morning...heaven!! im on cloud nine,can u tell?? ;) its been weeks now,and it seems like she has no problem adjusting,and i finally got my beauty sleep,again...alhamdulillah..like my mom used to said "once depa dah besaq,makin senang laaa..." and she's never wrong....luv u,mama...

till then...

note : let me clarify things out before u dare to let the naughty fingers of urs do the talking,and asking me the most famous question every living human being likes to blurt out *wink*...NO,we're not expanding our lil' family,juz yet...thus,no baby making in near future ;p only love making if i may say so,HAHA!! chill la... ;)

bibik or no bibik...

ben and i has been pushing this matter back and forth for like ages,iskk...seems like we have a different takes with this particular issue...hence,the dilly dallied ;p

ive been with my munchkins since they were born,thus the idea of leaving them with a total stranger,even tho in our very own house is quite intimidating to me,which i find hard to explain...my head still find it hard to digest..but we do need a little help to ease the burden,or at least someone to do the chores - up to my expectation that is ;p which is not easy im telling ya! haha!!

i know,some of u might wonder as why do i need a maid when i am not a working mom? good question...yes,i am a SAHM,but ive a few projects that ive been running thru the years...so,an extra hand will be usefull,especially when im doing my sewing,or baking...and i like my house to be neat and tidy at the same time..thus,having a maid will somehow put my mind at ease,i assume...

but,how do i know that we'll end up getting a good one at the first try?? from the stories i heard and read,mostly scared the hell out of me...ben said its a gamble,one never know what one will get...hmmm,me not happy... :( if only my weekend bibik (sofia,as i call her,who came to our house on weekly basis) agreed on becoming my permanent coz i like her..im happy with her work,and she's so easy to talk to,even tho she's not really a talker ;p ...talk less work more,thats what i like about her...sadly,she turned down the offer as she prefer her flexible working hour more..well,cant blame her...

anyway,might juz wait a little longer,and think a little deeper...

till then...

im all tears...

when my boy handed me his result's slip for his final exam...im very proud of u,abang...and so as daddy...

i know,he's only in standard one but the competition are fierce nowadays...why i said so? coz he's in 13th place even with 94%!! thats a serious noodles we have out there... ;p with this kind of result back when im in standard one (which was 20++ years back ;p ) i bet ive bagged the no 1 place,easy!! but it didnt work now as kids has become more brilliant by days...

me and ben promised him that we'll get him something if he secured 1oth place and below,but with this particular result,we dont have the guts to sticks to it...hence,toy'r'us that is...

till then...

the love of baking...

i love to bake,but nowadays,i hardly bake...i used to find solace in baking,but my trusted oven has been left abandoned due to my hectic schedule (as if,pfftt!! )...anyway,long story cut short,my munchkins coaxed me into baking their favorite - red velvet,yesterday...

taraaa!! my humble red velvet with mascarpone and cream cheese topping,delish!!

yummy on her tummy! one happy customer.. ;p

the aftermath,as of this morning.... ;)

and right now,im thinking on doing something with this lovely jam,my munchkins loathe this one as its a tad sour for their liking...thinking of doing some simple sponge cake with this cherry filling,yummeh!! hehe...see,once i start,i juz couldnt stop,iskkk...need to thaw the butter first,hehe..

till then...

wordless wednesday...

babbles...

we're back from a week at sg petani,tending to my unwell momma...yup,its her 'my heart' case gone wild,heheh...nothing serious,alhamdulillah...all she need was a good rest and stress-free,which none was done by her,iskkk....she refused to let us home,but ben and i insisted...and by the way,we have her most 'mujarab' medicine ever - her cucu-cucu!! her face lit up straight away,yay!!

me and comot team up to run the house,doing all the chores so that mama could rest to the max,but she hates it...saying that she get it done,literally...but nobody listen to her,so she gave up,and soaked herself with the free-show from the cucu-cucu (yes,my munchkins are very much into some sort of performance nowadays,dont ask why for ive no clues.. ;p )

so here i am,juz done with the piles of clothes that needed to be folded...its raining almost everyday here,thus,the piling of laundry..am waiting for ben to finish his work - yup,he's been busy-ier ever since moved to this new department,been bringing work home almost everday,haishhh...very the busy la u,dada.. ;p

and as for me,im supposed to get back to my sewing,but too lazy to even hold the tiny needle,hence,surfing the net instead,haha!! blame the technology,bad unifi!! hehe...

later skater...

final term...

i am sitting for my final exam (read :adlan's final term's exam.. ;p) thus,expect no update till we're done,pfftt!! anak yg exam,mommy yg panic...iskkk...

later skater...

bottle after bottle...

i am now switching this lil' bonbon nana from breastfeeding to bottle feeding,and man,its damn hard to get this girl of ours to latch her precious 'muncung' lips to that silicone tits..haissh!! im thinking of giving up,everyday,but something keep pushing me to get it done,once and for all.it aint easy let me tell u...

the last time with yaya,we had it quite smoothly,if not rough..only the downside was she's on ribena for two weeks before giving in to the formula milk,chocolate flavour only,iskkk,but we switched it to plain eventually...night time wasnt bad either,coz i have ben attending to her instead of myself...basically,we managed to wean her off less than 3 weeks,good eyy??

and here i am,four years later,doing the exact same thing over again,only to find that even if its ur own breed,coming from the same C-sect,no child is alike,unless its twin,i assume...boy,its a whirwind with nana...we're switching from one bottler after another,still she refused! we asked around for tips,tried various type of bottles,not to mention tits,but to no avail...she still refused!! :(

ben and i almost at the dead end,when we agreed to give it a last shot at this one brand,coz we clearly cant afford to have selections of unused bottles (not to mention adlan + adia's previous bottles,iskkk..) cramped inside the upper drawer,such a waste! its definitely irritate ben,more than i do... ;p anyway,im at the same pace with ben to let this particular bottle to be our last attemp..if its failed,we're doomed and im back to be the sole provider of my child's milk..iskk,what a let down...

but,to our surprised,she willingly latched on and i couldnt be more happier!! alhamdulillah,praised to God for the blessing He bestowed upon us,im utterly grateful...

the champ!! tommee tippee at last..and yes,ive to entice her with ribena once in a while juz to keep her drawned to the bottle...and gradually increasing the amount of the formula milk as we go along...good job,baby!! mommy so proud of u,and so as daddy ^_^...

our initial plan was to make used with what ever bottles that we have in storage ...and here's some to it...bought that tupperware's (green+purple) bottles for adlan,but he rejected it straight away,iskk..we switched him to nuby when we stayed at miri,for they has quite a selection over there...one can find nuby anywhere...but when adia's arrived,she turned it down!! in some way,we're quite relieved for its kinda hard to find nuby's range in malacca...so,we opt for something that is easy to find,so,its avent for adia...

anyway,back to nana's story...after she decline the above bottles,we tried her on one of these bottles - its a collections from the gift that our relatives and friends get for the babies,or shall i say,when they're baby...and no,our nana didnt buy it...once again,she refused...iskkk...

so,we came to a conclusion that maybe she wants a new bottle of her own...hence,the bottle hunting begin...first we tried on this glass bottle from babylife,from mothercare but failed...then,my good neighbour suggested us to try on MAM,and so we did...but she hates it...at this point,im ready to give up,it juz a matter of time...and when this one friend asked me to try tommee tippee,i promised ben that it will be the last coz im not doing this bottle hunting anymore...luckily she said yes to it,and we're over the moon!!

not to mention,we even tried a various sets of tits,but its a total flop as well,haishh...

all i can say for now,she's adapting to this new method of feeding...its ok,darling...baby steps ok,slowly but surely...and to my surprise,my boobs showing no signs of engorged-ment,what so ever,even after few days of neglect..hmmm,what that supposed to mean? is it my milk production has deteriorate since? im clueless...

till then...

my sentiment exactly...

after reading this blog of out-spoken wardina safiyah,i couldnt agreed more with her regarding this current trend of owning a designer's bag...i mean,how far one would go juz to be SEEN carrying a designer's bag?? how this designer's bag's justify u as a person?? and how can that bag of urs determined your social life?

actually,this particular issue has been messing with my head for quite sometimes...no,no,not because i dont own one - FIRST; coz clearly i cant afford one ( i can ,eventually,but i choose not to..the closest ive in possession is my braun buffel,from my hantaran that is,which i seldom used.. ) TWO; i dont feel the need to fork out quite sum of money juz for a bag,mind u,juz one...numero uno,isnt it crazeee?? u dont think so,well,shame on me then.... ;p THREE; ive other priorities in life,i.e. making sure my munchkins's college funds,insurances and their ASD is sufficient and stashed out some for holidays,makan2 and etc...in short,i chose to be cash rich.period.

ive this one occassion,where one of my friend (juz a social friend as i like to call it,we're not even close) crack into a giggles once she saw my esprit purse...and to quote her "ini brand budak sekolah laaa.." and she blurted it out with a smirk glued on her face...i was like,seriously babe?? SERIOUSLY?? so shallow laa,u...

i mean,i know kids nowadays can easily afford Guess,esprit,topshop juz to name a few..but that doesnt mean its 'childish' to be seen wearing one,dont u think?? what if thats all i can afford for? whats wrong if one choose to splurge into some middle-range brand as opposed to high-end one?? why being so judgemental??

but dont get me wrong,im definitely have no problem with people strutting around with designer's bag (be it genuine,or fake,or replicas as some might call it,whateva!!) i dont give a damn,for i believe that one can spend their money as they like...its ur moolah,go ahead...but what bothering me is when one tend to 'bergolok bergadai' juz to be seen carrying one,for me is sick!! some even boasting for having more than one,bangga wehh...hmm,i reserved my comment...

i dont mind if u're fucking rich,u can spend it like nobody business,nobody cares...but what worries me if that person live on end-meets-end basis?? let alone having a saving for rainy days...i dont think people will adore u,or look at u in awe if they know that u are broke...and,if only they knew,they will then argue bout the authencity of the bag...wouldnt it be heart wrecking knowing that u spend a good fortune of money,juz to have people question bout it? because ur life that u live in didnt match ur so called designer's bag...

anyway,its none of my business...and i need u to do the same...and,by all means,please dont judge people only by looking at their bags,or shoes alike...its the overall picture that matters the most...hope u get what i mean...i juz need to get this thing out of my chest,and now that i did,i feel glad...sorry if i hurt any of u in any ways,my intention is pure...

till then...

wordless wednesday...

lets the shoes do the talkin'...

hell yeah!! he's a die hard fan... ;)

gegurl...

my two girls,they're never alike... yaya is more towards barbies and princess,ballet and anything in pink - being the typical 5 years old girl,she likes to dress up,mix and match her own clothes...she's dying to put on make up,but she has to wait till she's 17 coz i said so,haha!! so vain,i knowww..as of now,she'll settle with her collections of lip gloss instead... ;)

whilst nana,on the other hand,is more of a punk princess,whom couldnt care less bout barbies (she'll run miles with fear,hehe...such a scaredy-cat..) and cooking set (not interested,at all!! )....she may be small,but her voice is beyond recognition..when she shout,u wont believe it came from her petite frame,talks about loud!! ;p

morning stroll at kl birdpark...

if last week we took the munchkins on a train ride - took putra lrt from kelana jaya to klcc,and our munchkins were beyond jakun,hehe...adlan once asked me where the driver is,and when i told him that it doesnt have one,u shouldve seen his face,HAHA!! my funny man!! adia get herself occupied hopping from one seat to another,haissshh...luckily the train was not full on that day (we took the morning one,so less crowded,much easy to handle the excited munchkins...yeah,one genius tip there given ;p ) while adriana frozed!! like totally keras what with all the strangers staring at her,as if laaaa kann,haha!! another funny scene for us to keep ourself entertained,ben and i keep looking at each other and smile (awwww...what a magic,we still have that brainwave-connection,hehe...thought we lost our modjo already after having these jakuns munchkins ;) lurves u,ben...always was and forever will be..^_^ )

this weekend we got them let loose at KL Birdpark...and it was a hit! they were quite amazed on seeing all kinds of birds roams freely,like can jalan sebelah sebelah gitewww,kelasss...especially the peacocks,strutting their ways like nobody business,but it is their home aightt?? so why bother...they were all over the places,luckily none of us got pooped,pheww...coz ive seen one of the visitor got himself a 'very nice' souvenir from one of the birds...poor guy...lucky us ;p

the idea of having the birds runs freely was definitely beyond cool,as u can see n sometimes touch the birds...but it was poorly maintain at some spot which leaves a very disturbing smells,especially when u have a kids with rhinitis and cannot 'tahan' the smells (read:adlan)..a bit challenging there...but,we managed to control the situation...

the weather was so kind to us from the moment we arrived there...but 10mins prior to the bird show,its pouring and the show was put to halt,much to our dismay :( ...luckily we managed to seek shelter at one of the hut nearby..at this point,the munchkins all dah meragam...thus,bribe them with nuggets that i cooked fr home to shut them off,hehe..this is when i realized that one of the mat salleh waited with us was matthew,one of the lads from the masterchef australia...so cuteeee la u,matthew...*wink* no offence,ben..i heart u still ;)

since the weather still not giving in for like ages....mind u,standing still with 3 lil' munchkins doing nothing for almost 30mins,sandwiched with a bunch of unknown people,wasnt really did us any good,so we're given up!!...once the munchkins all geared up with their caps and hat,we determined to redah the drizzle and go home...the munchkins of coz a tad sad coz they didnt catch the show but at least we have fun for the first couples of hours...so,there goes another good reason for a revisit,eyy? ;)

so,where are we going next weekend,kiddos? ;p

till then...

Benang by JazFara...

the other things that keeps me busy,other than my three lil' munchkins...its a jv between me and my girlfriend,farah...its already been in the market since last ramadhan,but only now ive the time to reveal it to u readers...its more like an experimental project,but it turn out more than what we've anticipated, alhamdulillah...

we're in no position to compete with the big name from the muslim's fashion,more like to add a few more colors to the world of hijab-wearing people in malaysia...

benang,the soft launch...

cotton printed shawls

plain cotton shawls

2-ways inner,made by good quality cotton...

if u have any enquiries regarding any of this products,u can juz leave a message here...or shoot us an email at benangbyjazfara@gmail.com or facebook : Benang by JazFara...

couldnt care less...

its funny how people keep assuming that its an easy task to be a SAHM...its interesting,really,at least to me,to be labelled as the'lucky one' for not having to drag my ass to the office and faced the dirty office politics...(gosh,if only they knew what ive been thru daily,but heck,they dont.. )

but for me,its kinda useless (times 1000,yeah,coz they're so dumb..) to explain the difficulty(ies) level of being home and make people understand that its beyond hard was never my intention anymore...for i believe that people will never understand,and they never will (read : ignorance)unless u become one...

what annoyed me most is when the outsiders thinks that i spend my time lounging around doing nothing,killing my time in front of my lappy from morning,or better yet,mall hopping all year round (pffft,what were they thinking?? think im paris hilton or something??)...i figure people are means,and they can be so judgemental too,not to mention narrowminded...or is it envy driven? u tell me...

no matter how hard i tried (to explain),they'll never buy it,hence,am not trying anymore.period.they can think what ever that pleased them as it'll never effect me anymore,for i will live my life to the fullest and be grateful with every 'rezeki' that ive been given...

and to quote my bff's : they can say what they want,when they want but its ur life,so its up to u as how u want to lead ur live,their say doesnt matter,the hell with them. hell yeah!! im 100% with u girlfriend,hehe!! and im putting smile back on my face...hell with them. ;p

till then...

im pissed!!

if only ive punching bag at home,it would've been 'dead' by now!!

im off to get some air...hope im back to myself in couple of hours,fingers crossed!!

growing up...

it suddenly hit me that my munchkins (read :adlan + adia) had grown when ;

• we've to buy two birds of chicken,instead of one,


• the portion of foods that ive cooked gettin larger,


• dine-out bill has never be friendly to us anymore ;p


• im no longer needed after shower,for they can get dressed all by themself,


• they have their own fashion sense,n im totally out of control...(i have my say only during special occassion,isskk)


• there'll be "NO ENTRY" on their door,in which one need to ask permission to enter the room.. ;p and sometimes requires password,haisshh...


• they suddenly talks about oppposites gender,haisshh...(this is worrying,okeh..)


• no more PDA when their friends in sights,pfftt...(i loathe this, :(


• when u say something,they'll go like 'mummy niiii...' or 'daddy niii...'

buuuut,no matter how 'cool' that they think they've turn into,these few things that they insisting on doing keep reminds me that they're still my babies...

• still need to 'bobok' before they went to bed,esp yaya...


• sleep with us on weekend (n they're really looking for it.. ;p)


• cried their heart out when i said that i wanna go back to work,and in such they'll be under the care of other people,called bibik,hehe...(i always used this when dont listen to me,haha!)


• feed them...
  

hows times flies...for all i know,they're growing fast before my eyes n i could never been blessed with the chance of being with them from the day they were born...i am more than grateful to raise my munchkins with my own hands,using my ways and of coz with the help from my darling ben...

till then...

alhamdulillah,our event went smoothly even with a BIG 'dugaan' few minutes before the much awaited event call time...

yes,after everything has been spread out as per my QC,its pouring,like debushhhh!! no mercy okehh...all soaking wet!!no dark cloud...no drizzle...juz kabussshh,basah lencun .... iskkk!! i am not gonna try to let u all know how or what i feel,for its beyond words...really!!my heart sunk!!

but luckily,ive got ben,my parent (yup,my mama+babah+chumyn did come over to lend a helping hand,in which i could never repay back...luv luv...) n my in-laws,all trying their hard to salvage the foods from the downpour...whilst urs truly (shame on me.. ;p) hiding inside my room,sobbing,huhu...once ive regained my sanity,im back downstairs and do what im supposed to do,hosting our open house...

actually,we dont really invite many people,juz a few close friends..its more to makan2 for the relatives,neighbours and not to mention adlan + adia's friends,n their families too...but to our surprise,the turn up quite overwhelmed that we dont have time to sit n chat as we planned...all like touch n go je,total madness,but in a good way of coz!! ;) too bz to even snap a pic or two...my bad... :(

gettin ready...

flower pot for guest tables...


last but not least,ben + i would like to extend our gratitude for those who came to our small makan2,we could never thanked u guys enough...sorry for the kekurangan sana sini...and for those who could not make it,we never hold grudges against u,we totally understand...unless u're related to me,haha!! (sile terasa adik beradik ku.. ;p)

and to my mama,babah,mak,abah,ayu,comot...tq so much from both of us,for we could never make it without the help from u guys,really really...next year can do again or not,hehe...

going back already... :(

till then...

anxious...

we'll be hosting our very first eid's open-house tomorrow...am so excited,but scared to death at the same time...im hoping that it'll be sunny tomorrow,hence the event will run as smooth as ive planned it in mind,all this while...iskkk...

• khemah - checked!


• chairs + tables + table cloth - checked!


• cutleries + plates + bowls + cups - checked!


• table piece (flowers + candles ) - checked!


• serviettes/tissues - checked!


• red velvet cake (bake by urs truly ;p ) - checked!


• camera - charging...


• foods - KIV,hehe.. ;)


• drinks - pending ice cubes...


• last minute touch up - tomorrow morning...

i thinks that all...ker ade lagi? aiyakkk!! total chaos okehhh!!

till then...

my triple 'A's...

adlan,adriana,adia...

happy bornday to me...

today,im a year older. more wiser? i dunno. perhap. ive grew a lot thru the year n i really hope somehow,it will turn me into somewhat a better me,if not perfect. and what ive learned?? here's some to of it...

• there's lotsa things to be done in order to achieve my dream(s),yeah,ive got several dreams,pathetic that is,but i dont give a damn. sacrifices is crucial,hence im pushing myself hard. VERY hard indeed.


• im sick of people judging me,but who am i to judge them. let them be,for i will not care.


• myself is my priority,and so as my family n good friends around me that has been there thru thick n thin. thats all that matter.


• people may talk,or bring me down but i'll make sure that in the end of the day,the joke is on them.


• hatred is bad,but i found that that its the best motivation ever.


• be in loved,and u'll be grand for love is what one need the most.

anyhoo,im blessed each day with what ive been given ; the lurves around me and the life i had. may my life will forever been blessed. God permits.

so now,blow d candle(s)...its getting more n more each year,hehe..

toodle..

boys will be boys..

adlan with his best buds...

he may only be 7,but already refused to be embraced in front of his friends,or by saying 'i luv u' out loud,haishhh....let alone a kiss!! and what hurting me the most is when,even salam pon need to be done in a flash of time :(

i know he's growing up,but its kinda fast...and he's ONLY 7,mind u.... *sigh* was all boys like this?? i did confront him bout this,asking him if any of his friends making fun of him...and to my dismay,he said YES!! those kids are so means!! times 100 okeyyy...im so pissed!

then i told him that let them laugh,for its their lost that their mother didnt do as same as what ive done but he still refused,saying "mommy ni,nanti my friend all laugh at abang..." :(

i know,i know,u wouldve said that im in a total denial,but to my defence he's still my baby boy and im not going to stop kissing or hugs him just yet.not now.period.

well,i think ive to learn to let go...gimme another 5years,or maybe 7...or maybe 10,i dont know..but in the mean time,im going to enjoy my 'gomol2' moment with my baby boy,haha!

toodle.

jake's revisited...

after 10 years,we're back to jake's charbroil...to celebrate my advance birthday,and not to mention belated birthday bash for my darling yaya n miza...

after 10 years,we're no longer fit into the wagon that 4 of us (abah,mom,me+ben..) used to sit...seems like the long table on the 1st floor is what they have to fit us,since there're 6 other human being with us,hehe...

after 10 years,they still giving me balloon.. ;p but the brownie was,wait a second...AWESOME!! still warm,nice... ;)

after 10 years,they no longer giving u shirt,but face towel instead,hmmm..dada,where's our jake's shirt?? ;p

but still,after 10 years,the foods was still marvelous...what can i say,good food,good company...im more than happy,im truly blessed,alhamdulillah...

so,to jake's...see u in 10 years time,Gods permit...now im off to bed with a smile on my face... ;p

nitey nite,peeps...

happy eid,everyone...

selamat hari raya

maaf zahir & batin

from us...