fierce..

F.I.E.R.C.E.

both me and ben agreed that that's the VERY word to describe adia,nowadays..its been a couple of weeks since she's behaving like that..we're still figuring the reason,the ReAL reason behind this peculiar behaviour of hers..really,its bothering us and its killing me,literally..knowing that somehow or rather my split attention between the three of them has leads to this,iskk.. :(

I know kids won't juz lashed out for no reason,but she did..one minute,she yelled..then,she's laughing n giggling away like nothing matters..then,the next thing u know she's screaming from the top of her lung,juz coz..JUST CAUSE!!how irritating is that??hIshh..

I'm telling u,she's driving me nuts!!I cried several times..yeah,I know..but I'm so stressed out I donno what to do..even ben was left clueless..I've tried,as much as possible to give my fullest attention to each of my munchkins,but I know I'm not perfetc..I'm far from perfect but I'm tryng here,VERY HARD infact..but seems like my hard its not enough.. :( I'm so afraid that I can't pulled this off..wonder how's the other mothers did this..coz I'm about to give up..

I juz hope that its one of the growing up phase for her,I really do..for I want the best for my munchkins of coz..and seeing adia like this really freaked the hell out of me,to be franked..I'm crossing my fingers that she'll be back to her normal self when the school startm.for I know she'll has a rite medium to channel every energy in her,be it positive or negative..

so,for my darling adia,I know u won't be reading this,juz yet,but I juz want u to know that mommy lurves u so very much..VERY VERY MUCH!!so,rebel no more,k..muahsss!!