couldnt care less...

its funny how people keep assuming that its an easy task to be a SAHM...its interesting,really,at least to me,to be labelled as the'lucky one' for not having to drag my ass to the office and faced the dirty office politics...(gosh,if only they knew what ive been thru daily,but heck,they dont.. )

but for me,its kinda useless (times 1000,yeah,coz they're so dumb..) to explain the difficulty(ies) level of being home and make people understand that its beyond hard was never my intention anymore...for i believe that people will never understand,and they never will (read : ignorance)unless u become one...

what annoyed me most is when the outsiders thinks that i spend my time lounging around doing nothing,killing my time in front of my lappy from morning,or better yet,mall hopping all year round (pffft,what were they thinking?? think im paris hilton or something??)...i figure people are means,and they can be so judgemental too,not to mention narrowminded...or is it envy driven? u tell me...

no matter how hard i tried (to explain),they'll never buy it,hence,am not trying anymore.period.they can think what ever that pleased them as it'll never effect me anymore,for i will live my life to the fullest and be grateful with every 'rezeki' that ive been given...

and to quote my bff's : they can say what they want,when they want but its ur life,so its up to u as how u want to lead ur live,their say doesnt matter,the hell with them. hell yeah!! im 100% with u girlfriend,hehe!! and im putting smile back on my face...hell with them. ;p

till then...

im pissed!!

if only ive punching bag at home,it would've been 'dead' by now!!

im off to get some air...hope im back to myself in couple of hours,fingers crossed!!

growing up...

it suddenly hit me that my munchkins (read :adlan + adia) had grown when ;

• we've to buy two birds of chicken,instead of one,


• the portion of foods that ive cooked gettin larger,


• dine-out bill has never be friendly to us anymore ;p


• im no longer needed after shower,for they can get dressed all by themself,


• they have their own fashion sense,n im totally out of control...(i have my say only during special occassion,isskk)


• there'll be "NO ENTRY" on their door,in which one need to ask permission to enter the room.. ;p and sometimes requires password,haisshh...


• they suddenly talks about oppposites gender,haisshh...(this is worrying,okeh..)


• no more PDA when their friends in sights,pfftt...(i loathe this, :(


• when u say something,they'll go like 'mummy niiii...' or 'daddy niii...'

buuuut,no matter how 'cool' that they think they've turn into,these few things that they insisting on doing keep reminds me that they're still my babies...

• still need to 'bobok' before they went to bed,esp yaya...


• sleep with us on weekend (n they're really looking for it.. ;p)


• cried their heart out when i said that i wanna go back to work,and in such they'll be under the care of other people,called bibik,hehe...(i always used this when dont listen to me,haha!)


• feed them...
  

hows times flies...for all i know,they're growing fast before my eyes n i could never been blessed with the chance of being with them from the day they were born...i am more than grateful to raise my munchkins with my own hands,using my ways and of coz with the help from my darling ben...

till then...

alhamdulillah,our event went smoothly even with a BIG 'dugaan' few minutes before the much awaited event call time...

yes,after everything has been spread out as per my QC,its pouring,like debushhhh!! no mercy okehh...all soaking wet!!no dark cloud...no drizzle...juz kabussshh,basah lencun .... iskkk!! i am not gonna try to let u all know how or what i feel,for its beyond words...really!!my heart sunk!!

but luckily,ive got ben,my parent (yup,my mama+babah+chumyn did come over to lend a helping hand,in which i could never repay back...luv luv...) n my in-laws,all trying their hard to salvage the foods from the downpour...whilst urs truly (shame on me.. ;p) hiding inside my room,sobbing,huhu...once ive regained my sanity,im back downstairs and do what im supposed to do,hosting our open house...

actually,we dont really invite many people,juz a few close friends..its more to makan2 for the relatives,neighbours and not to mention adlan + adia's friends,n their families too...but to our surprise,the turn up quite overwhelmed that we dont have time to sit n chat as we planned...all like touch n go je,total madness,but in a good way of coz!! ;) too bz to even snap a pic or two...my bad... :(

gettin ready...

flower pot for guest tables...


last but not least,ben + i would like to extend our gratitude for those who came to our small makan2,we could never thanked u guys enough...sorry for the kekurangan sana sini...and for those who could not make it,we never hold grudges against u,we totally understand...unless u're related to me,haha!! (sile terasa adik beradik ku.. ;p)

and to my mama,babah,mak,abah,ayu,comot...tq so much from both of us,for we could never make it without the help from u guys,really really...next year can do again or not,hehe...

going back already... :(

till then...

anxious...

we'll be hosting our very first eid's open-house tomorrow...am so excited,but scared to death at the same time...im hoping that it'll be sunny tomorrow,hence the event will run as smooth as ive planned it in mind,all this while...iskkk...

• khemah - checked!


• chairs + tables + table cloth - checked!


• cutleries + plates + bowls + cups - checked!


• table piece (flowers + candles ) - checked!


• serviettes/tissues - checked!


• red velvet cake (bake by urs truly ;p ) - checked!


• camera - charging...


• foods - KIV,hehe.. ;)


• drinks - pending ice cubes...


• last minute touch up - tomorrow morning...

i thinks that all...ker ade lagi? aiyakkk!! total chaos okehhh!!

till then...

my triple 'A's...

adlan,adriana,adia...

happy bornday to me...

today,im a year older. more wiser? i dunno. perhap. ive grew a lot thru the year n i really hope somehow,it will turn me into somewhat a better me,if not perfect. and what ive learned?? here's some to of it...

• there's lotsa things to be done in order to achieve my dream(s),yeah,ive got several dreams,pathetic that is,but i dont give a damn. sacrifices is crucial,hence im pushing myself hard. VERY hard indeed.


• im sick of people judging me,but who am i to judge them. let them be,for i will not care.


• myself is my priority,and so as my family n good friends around me that has been there thru thick n thin. thats all that matter.


• people may talk,or bring me down but i'll make sure that in the end of the day,the joke is on them.


• hatred is bad,but i found that that its the best motivation ever.


• be in loved,and u'll be grand for love is what one need the most.

anyhoo,im blessed each day with what ive been given ; the lurves around me and the life i had. may my life will forever been blessed. God permits.

so now,blow d candle(s)...its getting more n more each year,hehe..

toodle..

boys will be boys..

adlan with his best buds...

he may only be 7,but already refused to be embraced in front of his friends,or by saying 'i luv u' out loud,haishhh....let alone a kiss!! and what hurting me the most is when,even salam pon need to be done in a flash of time :(

i know he's growing up,but its kinda fast...and he's ONLY 7,mind u.... *sigh* was all boys like this?? i did confront him bout this,asking him if any of his friends making fun of him...and to my dismay,he said YES!! those kids are so means!! times 100 okeyyy...im so pissed!

then i told him that let them laugh,for its their lost that their mother didnt do as same as what ive done but he still refused,saying "mommy ni,nanti my friend all laugh at abang..." :(

i know,i know,u wouldve said that im in a total denial,but to my defence he's still my baby boy and im not going to stop kissing or hugs him just yet.not now.period.

well,i think ive to learn to let go...gimme another 5years,or maybe 7...or maybe 10,i dont know..but in the mean time,im going to enjoy my 'gomol2' moment with my baby boy,haha!

toodle.

jake's revisited...

after 10 years,we're back to jake's charbroil...to celebrate my advance birthday,and not to mention belated birthday bash for my darling yaya n miza...

after 10 years,we're no longer fit into the wagon that 4 of us (abah,mom,me+ben..) used to sit...seems like the long table on the 1st floor is what they have to fit us,since there're 6 other human being with us,hehe...

after 10 years,they still giving me balloon.. ;p but the brownie was,wait a second...AWESOME!! still warm,nice... ;)

after 10 years,they no longer giving u shirt,but face towel instead,hmmm..dada,where's our jake's shirt?? ;p

but still,after 10 years,the foods was still marvelous...what can i say,good food,good company...im more than happy,im truly blessed,alhamdulillah...

so,to jake's...see u in 10 years time,Gods permit...now im off to bed with a smile on my face... ;p

nitey nite,peeps...

happy eid,everyone...

selamat hari raya

maaf zahir & batin

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